Lesson 3 A.C.I.M Workbook

I do not understand anything I see in this room[on this street, from this window, in this place].

  1. Apply this idea in the same way as the previous ones, without making distinctions of any kind. Whatever you see becomes a proper subject for applying the idea. Be sure that you do not question the suitability of anything for application of the idea. These are not exercises in judgement. Anything is suitable if you see it. Some of the things you see may have emotionally charged meaning for you. Try to lay such feeling aside, and merely use these things exactly as you would anything else.
  2. The point of this exercise is to help you clear your mind of all past associations, to see things exactly as they appear to you now, and realise how little you really understand about them. It is therefore essential that you keep a perfectly open mind, unhampered by judgement, in selecting the things to which the idea for the day is to be applied. For this purpose one thing is like another; equally suitable and therefore equally useful.

Lesson 2 A.C.I.M Workbook

I have given everything I see in this room[on this street, from this window, in this place]all the meaning that it has for me.

  1. The exercise with this idea are the same as those for the first one. Begin with the things that are near you, and apply the idea to whatever you glance rest on. Then increase the range outward. Turn your head so that you include whatever is on either side. If possible, turn around and apply the idea to what was behind you. Remain as indiscriminate as possible in selecting subjects for its application, do not concentrate on anything in particular, and do not attempt to include everything you see in a given area, or you will introduce strain.
  2. Merely glance easily and fairly quickly around you, trying to avoid selection by size, brightness, colour, material, or relative importance to you. Take the subjects simply as you see them, Try to apply the exercise with equal ease to a body or a button, a fly or a floor, an arm or an apple. The sole criterion for applying the idea to anything is merely that your eyes have lighted on it. Make no attempt to include anything in particular, but be sure that nothing is specifically excluded.

A Course in miracles Student Workbook

Hello everyone , today I have decided to start new series which might take as long as 365 days , however it is possible to finish it earlier ,all depends from how often I choose to post .

I would love to see whoever feels like it to join, I’m sure many of you will benefit from those lessons , also if you would like to get a copy of the entire book , you are welcome to drop a comment and I will be happy to send you a copy.

Lesson 1

Nothing I see in this room[on this street, from this window, in this place] means anything.

  1. Now look slowly around you, and practice applying this idea very specifically to whatever you see:

This table does not mean anything

This chair does not mean anything

This hand does not mean anything

This foot does not mean anything

This Pen does not mean anything

2. Then look father away from your immediate area, and apply the idea to a wider range.

That door does not mean anything.

That body does not mean anything.

That lamp does not mean anything.

That sign does not mean anything.

That shadow does not mean anything.

3. Notice that these statements are not arranged in any order, and make no allowance for differences in the kinds of things to which they are applied. That is the purpose of the exercise. The statement should merely be applied to anything you see. As you practice the idea for the day, use it totally indiscriminately. Do not attempt to apply it to everything you see, for these exercise should not become ritualistic. Only be sure that nothing you see is specifically excluded. One thing is like another as far as the application of the idea is concerned.

4. Each of the first three lessons should not be done more than twice a day each , preferably morning and evening. Nor should they be attempted for more than a minute or so, unless that entails a sense of hurry. A comfortable sense of leisure is essential.

Honorata / please share your thoughts and if you have stood upon those teachings before .

Healing

Welcome back dear fellow bloggers and anyone who will come across this post.

It has been truly a long and bumpy ride , I have taken myself on , but with true honesty it has been the best thing that could have ever happen to me .

As I have mentioned in the last post , I have found my person … I am still quite shocked how in a such a short period , you can become so close to another human being , how everything can change literally overnight, but more about this maybe another time as today I have something else id love to write about and hopefully ,gain some more insight of what you think and how you see the stuff which I am going to elaborate on in this post .

So lets start from the beginning

I have been in few relationships myself , I cant tell that they were bad , they certainly were in my life for a reason , sometimes them reasons don’t seem too obvious for us and usually it is because , we don’t see ourselves exactly as we are . Quite often we are portraying ourselves as someone we want to be , however yet we are not .

Not to say it is right or wrong , obviously it is a matter of discussion and/or opinion ,which we all tend to have and which of course will differ ,depending on our life experience and how much we are allowing to heal our mind, body and soul , but let me introduce you to the ways I seen relationships as . Yes ways , because just two months ago I have had a completely different outlook on what being in a relationship is to what I think I feel now .

First comes the child , you know , the one who throw a tantrum every single time something doesn’t go its way ? yeah it was me , in the past ,why was that happening ? why was I so triggered by simple things , and by simple I really mean basics , for example when someone would not reply to me in the rightly manner (right only for me of course ) I would go mad , trust me , pure madness and I cant even blame this child (myself) for doing so , because I truly was acting out my childhood trauma , I wanted to feel heard and seen and all of that what child needs from their parents , yet how often it wasn’t reciprocated in my case. Of course I see where I went south and hurt not once but hundred of times someone I genuinely cared for , but the instinct of survival and proving myself that I am worth the time ,was so strong and clearly at the begging I haven’t seen it as an issue , if I have to be totally honest .

Some or rather all of my behaviours were very automatic , I knew I’m going insane ,in literal way but I thought it is normal way to express yourself and to simply get the things you want , while in all honesty it never worked quiet well for me , I would rather feel even more abandoned and lost than before but I never understood why it is happening.

Now comes the question , How important it is to heal your inner child before entering relationship?

The answer will not be linear ,just like the healing is not but I believe it is of huge importance , healing has completely changed the way i look at the relationship I have now and on the ones from the past .

Of course as you start the healing , you realise why you have been choosing people who would trigger you and offer you less than bare minimum as it is all rotted deep inside of us ,and sooner or later everyone will choose to heal ,so they can fully accept who they are and what they want from life .

So often we think love hurts , so we choose the hurtful experiences and partners who don’t seem to meet any of our needs , we try to give a lot in hope that we will be wanted , where in fact this behaviour has quite the opposite effect…

How often did you over give to someone who should get nothing out of you ?

How often did you blamed yourself for not being worthy of the love and affection of someone , who seemed like the love of your life ?

I believe we tend to delude ourselves with thinking , that we can change someone , where in fact the only person you should focus on changing is yourself , so you know and remember who you truly are , so you don’t settle for less than you deserve , so you don’t chase unfulfilling relationships, so you don’t get into relationship because you feel lonely .

Knowing who you truly are is a blessing and thankfully more people start to realise the importance of self love and self care , I dream of a world where people are as loving ,true and honest ,and stop putting the appearances of someone they are not …

To be continued ….

Honorata

It’s me again

It has been such a long time since I last posted anything.

Life has been truly busy ! In the most positive way , probably the way I’d never even expect it to be .

Quite often I was writing here on my experience with Law of attraction and manifesting and of course there was many wonderful things which happened for me , however I have noticed that the best way to get what you want , is by simply being it .

Well , of course it might seem like not so simple to accomplish, especially when we don’t know what exactly we want from life and it is okay .

The one thing I know for sure now , is that it will be beneficial to at least know , what you don’t want from life and start from there .

So getting back to myself, I have received something I would never expect, even though i have been manifesting this for so long. Why won’t I expect it ? Well , I would but from the completely different person.

And whats even more beautiful, is that it came so unexpected and fast ,that i have had no time to even think what is going on . It was here and thats it . I’m in love and im loved by someone, that person is amazing and loves me just the way I am .

I feel like my heart wants to jump out of my chest while I write it. It is the most amazing feeling I have ever experienced. I thought I really thought that I know what love is , I knew how to give but not how to receive, not because I was closed off but because the person I used to chase was not in love with me . Seem like a sad thing but I honestly can’t thank God enough for what has happened.

I let go of the old and opened myself to be truly loved , I received it almost immediately.

Guys please, never lose hope . One thing I’m sure of is that if you want love , choose love , not the person you think will give it to you. Usually we don’t see the blocks and we think our love will be enough for both but it won’t be .

You deserve to be loved and adored and respected. Let go of the old and allow whatever is meant for you to show up ❤️‍🔥

I feel truly blessed and you can’t even imagine how much my life has changed since .

Please don’t get it wrong, I don’t need anyone and i know it ,very well know it, but as soon as i opened myself and let go , I have received more than I could ever ask for and I think it’s simply wonderful .

HONORATA

Sunday

Sunday Good Morning 🙏

I am still in bed , I woke up early , probably before 8am (if that counts as early)

I have watched some YouTube video which was an hr long and after that I read the book I study now .

Today I have chosen to Fast . I feel like my body need it so much !

The fasting is from food only , I’ll still drink water and green tea etc

I have let myself have a little feast for the last 3 days due to some celebrations and now I feel so heavy , not weight wise but mentally heavy that fasting is the only way I can feel light mentally and physically 🪴💫

I have ended the yt videos phase as probably most of you can notice, I always try to do what I’m lead to , and now I’m lead to 2 weeks break, so I can fully focus on studying the book I currently read .

Since the beginning of the May till now , there was so many changes within me ,that I sometimes find it hard to believe when I see my past self . Not that I resent her or anything , but seeing clearly how did I perceived everything, makes me wonder , and makes me be so grateful for the development I have achieved with the help of amazing people I met on my journey. Most of which are online but that does not take away the importance of their lessons to me .

I only wish love and peace upon all of you and I know this is meant for all of us .

Love Honorata x

Look Beyond The Body 👤

There is so much more to a person. Than the frame , the body we see and how they show themselves . What they promise and how they love us .

How they speak and behave when we start to get to know them . It is not about judgement and seeing wrong in people, but rather seeing your own patterns , and cutting away everything that doesn’t serve your highest good. Cutting i don’t mean ,judging them ,hating them and cursing them , just accept what you can’t change and don’t judge anyone , neither yourself

Having highs with someone is not healthy, having rough bed experience and calling it something we actually enjoy is rather self destructive. We are looking for pain because we find a pleasure in the pain , instead of being nurturing and having intimate experiences , by intimate I mean more of being vulnerable and opening your heart to the other person and not necessarily “legs” .

There is so many broken people, who think they miss something outside of them , who cherish other person above themselves, and see them as someone special and better. While we are all equal .

I understand and I know it’s a challenge for many people to just even believe that they can change something in their life , but all it takes is taking a chance on you this time and not putting yourself below anyone ,just being equal . I think it will build up very healthy relationship with yourself, as you will be able to see how much you deserve everything your soul crave so much .

One thing also comes to my mind , we often will pretend that we are healing and we need time etc and then we will entertain other things instead of working on the issues we have within us. The longer it will take for us to understand, where we stand and with what we are dealing when we focus on the unwanted , on the stuff which hurt us and make us feel like a victim to our own made circumstances.

I am just like you and We all deserve the love , peace, abundance and joy. We can achieve it ,because at the end the day it is all within us. Nobody can either take it or give it to you ,but yourself.

Is nice to be important but is more important to be nice Michael Mirdad

Karma

Happy Saturday to everyone 🤎

Today I have decided to read a little bit about karma . Im sure someone will find it useful as much as I do in those times , where I seek deeper understanding of what is and what isn’t.

I wish you all a wonderful Saturday and loads of love and peace 💓

Honorata xoxo