Healing

Welcome back dear fellow bloggers and anyone who will come across this post.

It has been truly a long and bumpy ride , I have taken myself on , but with true honesty it has been the best thing that could have ever happen to me .

As I have mentioned in the last post , I have found my person … I am still quite shocked how in a such a short period , you can become so close to another human being , how everything can change literally overnight, but more about this maybe another time as today I have something else id love to write about and hopefully ,gain some more insight of what you think and how you see the stuff which I am going to elaborate on in this post .

So lets start from the beginning

I have been in few relationships myself , I cant tell that they were bad , they certainly were in my life for a reason , sometimes them reasons don’t seem too obvious for us and usually it is because , we don’t see ourselves exactly as we are . Quite often we are portraying ourselves as someone we want to be , however yet we are not .

Not to say it is right or wrong , obviously it is a matter of discussion and/or opinion ,which we all tend to have and which of course will differ ,depending on our life experience and how much we are allowing to heal our mind, body and soul , but let me introduce you to the ways I seen relationships as . Yes ways , because just two months ago I have had a completely different outlook on what being in a relationship is to what I think I feel now .

First comes the child , you know , the one who throw a tantrum every single time something doesn’t go its way ? yeah it was me , in the past ,why was that happening ? why was I so triggered by simple things , and by simple I really mean basics , for example when someone would not reply to me in the rightly manner (right only for me of course ) I would go mad , trust me , pure madness and I cant even blame this child (myself) for doing so , because I truly was acting out my childhood trauma , I wanted to feel heard and seen and all of that what child needs from their parents , yet how often it wasn’t reciprocated in my case. Of course I see where I went south and hurt not once but hundred of times someone I genuinely cared for , but the instinct of survival and proving myself that I am worth the time ,was so strong and clearly at the begging I haven’t seen it as an issue , if I have to be totally honest .

Some or rather all of my behaviours were very automatic , I knew I’m going insane ,in literal way but I thought it is normal way to express yourself and to simply get the things you want , while in all honesty it never worked quiet well for me , I would rather feel even more abandoned and lost than before but I never understood why it is happening.

Now comes the question , How important it is to heal your inner child before entering relationship?

The answer will not be linear ,just like the healing is not but I believe it is of huge importance , healing has completely changed the way i look at the relationship I have now and on the ones from the past .

Of course as you start the healing , you realise why you have been choosing people who would trigger you and offer you less than bare minimum as it is all rotted deep inside of us ,and sooner or later everyone will choose to heal ,so they can fully accept who they are and what they want from life .

So often we think love hurts , so we choose the hurtful experiences and partners who don’t seem to meet any of our needs , we try to give a lot in hope that we will be wanted , where in fact this behaviour has quite the opposite effect…

How often did you over give to someone who should get nothing out of you ?

How often did you blamed yourself for not being worthy of the love and affection of someone , who seemed like the love of your life ?

I believe we tend to delude ourselves with thinking , that we can change someone , where in fact the only person you should focus on changing is yourself , so you know and remember who you truly are , so you don’t settle for less than you deserve , so you don’t chase unfulfilling relationships, so you don’t get into relationship because you feel lonely .

Knowing who you truly are is a blessing and thankfully more people start to realise the importance of self love and self care , I dream of a world where people are as loving ,true and honest ,and stop putting the appearances of someone they are not …

To be continued ….

Honorata

Hold tight or let go ?

Good morning everyone πŸ’«

Why it’s hard to let go of someone , is it because we love that person so much or maybe we fear the idea of being abandoned by them ?

After some long time , some of us will get to the point where you will feel like you were neglecting yourself, while chasing the love of someone else. Their love isn’t more important, their love isn’t better than what you can give yourself.

In fact you not allowing yourself to let go , makes it triple as strong and necessary as it actually is .

We do need love and we are love. We are not in position and we never should beg anyone for love . Who are we ,how much we don’t feel worth of being loved , to actually beg someone ,and be with someone who doesn’t seem to bother about us at all.

One sided love is pain, then we hear people say that love is pain , while love isn’t pain , our choices are painful, because if we would truly work on and love ourselves, we won’t allow them situations to happen and we would choose someone who is choosing us .

Honorata

May 1st – First Video .

Hello beautiful πŸ’« as I promised I recorded a video , it is very short indeed but its the first one as since I really had no time to do more , I felt like I was taken by surprise that today is already May 1st.

Let me tell you something… times flies when you enjoy your life .

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Tomorrow I’ll do my best to post longer one and actually to talk more about the things which are important for me and you hopefully. Xoxo

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How to manifest anything you want .

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I have seen so many videos ,where they teach about manifesting ,and with each new video they have new formula to follow , manifesting is something we do even without being aware of it, but I know we all want to understand the world we live in ,and we try all possible moves we can to kind of fit it and don’t lose in the game , we want to become masters at manifesting

Yet we don’t understand that we already are mastering this art of manifesting , the only problem is ,we don’t control our thoughts and that’s why we have unwanted circumstance in our life , lack of money, rejection etc .

We think we cant manifest but that’s BS its our natural ability ,whether you believe it or not ,and since thoughts manifest , id rather be mindful of those .

We tend to believe more someone on the internet then ourselves , for example we know something works well for us , but someone will tell us its not the way to do it , the right way is my way ,then we change it and we end up with unwanted results ,since we believed more in what someone else said than what we know to be true for us .

You manifest your entire life , and it has never been hard ,yet now it seems like you cant do it , the mindset itself makes it hard so it will be very good to start with what you telling yourself .

Stop saying things like , I cant do it , everyone else does but not me , I don’t believe it will happen , its not for me , etc its BS but even though it is BS this BS will manifest in your reality by not giving you what you want but by giving you what you fear and don’t want , so whether u like it or not , you are master at manifesting , its your choice to chose what you will manifest from now on .

This is your life and you and only you are in the power to create what you love . Manifesting doesn’t need to make sense , its not logical , nobody even ask you to believe in manifestation , its here and always will be , its up to you , how you will choose to use it , for you or against you , remember you are not the victim of the circumstance , you create your life based on your assumptions , so always make sure to check yourself , because there is really no one to change but yourself .

Honorata Czestochowska
Honorata Czestochowska

How not to get mad

My Friend Antonio has send me this beautiful photo πŸ“Έ

I did what I said . ! I wanted to rest and I did , nevermind that I felt terrible

I need to be more clear about what they heck i want . Just now ! Like now ! And it’s 9pm I got rid of the headache which was here since Friday 😫

But there is one thing I’m proud of … I managed not to take any painkillers, it would be just a waste as for me the kind of headache I had , never goes away with painkillers, it has to pass on its own or with a little bit of yoga.

So thank God I’m functioning again as I need to tailor my son’s school trousers as probably some of you are aware , school is back on tomorrow πŸ™Œ

And so work life is back , but that’s something I’m not resenting anymore, because I truly love what I do !

Have a lovely night and so much love ❀️

Honorata

Happy Easter 🐣

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I would love to wish every single one of you a Happy Easter 🐣

This year we have it easier than in the last two years, so I think it would be great to appreciate the life we are given to live.

I believe we all have a mission in this world . For one it will be something of a big nature , leading others and being on top , for others however it might seem not so big but it will matter even more , its to take care of yourself and learn how to make heaven on earth .

So today I hope , you will love yourself a little bit more than yesterday πŸ’›

Happy Easter 🐣 πŸ’“ πŸ’›

Honorata

Don’t speak

I had a very interesting conversation with my sister recently.

And what I will write below will give you an insight of what that conversation had in mind, or rather what i had in mind …because i have started it .

At first breath i felt somehow hurt but then i though, we do things we not aware might hurt others , we speak words we can’t take back . We often do and say from what we know best .

Sometimes that best is pretty low but i don’t want to judge a person , especially someone i know so close and someone I know would be hurt ten folds if I would be the one saying them things.

If you don’t have something good to say to someone, don’t say it. Treat all with courtesy and kindness.

I speak with my sister a lot about self love , how to respect your own self and appreciate everything you went through.

She know very well , at least now she knows for sure ,some of my insecurities. Yet she decided to laugh it off ,not thinking as per usual . Which sometimes makes me feel like it the reason id rather be alone than with anyone around me .

Going deeper, i feel like this is the exact reason why i prefer time alone . Since child ,there was always someone who would comment on something and make it not a big of a deal . Well it wasn’t anything big for me either, back then , or was i wrong? I was indeed very wrong … i would stop doing what i liked to do , not be around certain people because I knew they would pick on me , avoid certain situations .

I try my hardest to understand how it could take me so long to learn such simple lesson . All because of that one situation. Or rather because of me not letting it slip and not allowing this form of disrespect towards me . Even as a joke . Because you should not let anyone joke about things you insecure about, and im not learning to love myself just the way I’m, for someone else to come and destroy my self esteem in seconds .

Since that day i have came across so many articles and sentences in a book where it just bring it all back .

But I must say , im proud of how differently i handle things now .

Before i would try to ignore it and change the subject, just to stop the laughter . Now I speak up and say how i feel and why i think its not right.

I feel courageous. Yet there is still so many things to work on . When it comes to family, it is really fucked up.

I never thought i will have to cut ties . But if nobody cares and i have to make the effort? Is it worth it ? Is it worth the try if i see strangers being treated with more compassion than own family member?

I hope ill get some sleep tonight, it has been pretty challenging lately.

Love H .

Have Faith In Yourself

I’m very down to earth person . I like peace of mind and no drama .

However I used to be a drama , when I felt like im not enough , usually that happened in romantic relationships .

We sometimes don’t even know how important it is , to truly take care of your own self . How to accept yourself, exactly as you are , without the need to change something every second of the day .

How to stop being the worst critique, hater and unhappy about our own self being . I know not everyone has that type of feelings, but this post is for the people who don’t feel enough at times, or maybe more than at times .

The only thing I’m willing to work on now , is myself , my own peace, well-being, health and happiness. I don’t even focus on being in Love or anything on that sort, if I find i friend , that will be a happy day for me , but for now I rather choose to be selective with my energy.

And one more thing worth to remember. You don’t own anyone anything, you own yourself everything.

Love H .

Happy weekend πŸ€πŸ’«

Hello my loves ❀

I hope you are having a wonderful weekend and staying positive and joyful .

It’s only two weeks now and I’ll be finishing my weekend work. I’m pretty excited to see what’s coming next , I have some plans and ideas and for sure I’ll make it happen, just as I did with this work. πŸ’ͺ

It’s crazy and amazing at the same time , how many challenges we can take on at times , and still feel like we are doing NOTHING?! At times we simply don’t see , how far we have come and how many things we have done .

Until we start to put everything on paper or just simply tell ourselves what already has been done .

I see now that even though I have decided not to make any resolutions for 2022 , I have achieved already more than I would with making them as per every single past year! Which to me proves the point ,that it’s not the resolution itself but the need for change ,is what counts .

I honestly would never expect myself to be where I’m today and it’s still kind of far from where I want to be , but is also far away from where I used to be , something like in the middle . The journey usually is long and challenging but I see now that it was all worth it . The wait , patience, sleepless nights , heartbreaks , removing people from my life , it all lead me to where I’m now .

Now all I want for myself is a peaceful and free life . Where I work how I want to work. Love how I love and not to be blamed and ashamed for it . Trust in people, make friends with like minded people, forgive those who made me feel unwanted, not worthy and not loved and just live my life to the fullest. That’s my wish for 2022 . No regrets.

Love Honotata. ❀

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