Another day , another short video 📹
I wish you all wonderful evening 💞
Good morning everyone 💫
Why it’s hard to let go of someone , is it because we love that person so much or maybe we fear the idea of being abandoned by them ?
After some long time , some of us will get to the point where you will feel like you were neglecting yourself, while chasing the love of someone else. Their love isn’t more important, their love isn’t better than what you can give yourself.
In fact you not allowing yourself to let go , makes it triple as strong and necessary as it actually is .
We do need love and we are love. We are not in position and we never should beg anyone for love . Who are we ,how much we don’t feel worth of being loved , to actually beg someone ,and be with someone who doesn’t seem to bother about us at all.
One sided love is pain, then we hear people say that love is pain , while love isn’t pain , our choices are painful, because if we would truly work on and love ourselves, we won’t allow them situations to happen and we would choose someone who is choosing us .
Hello beautiful 💫 as I promised I recorded a video , it is very short indeed but its the first one as since I really had no time to do more , I felt like I was taken by surprise that today is already May 1st.
Let me tell you something… times flies when you enjoy your life .
Tomorrow I’ll do my best to post longer one and actually to talk more about the things which are important for me and you hopefully. Xoxo
Thinking back on my past relationships, I must say , there was no love involved.
It is harsh but true . I’m not going to lie to myself anymore . I was choosing my partners and also they have been choosing me ,because we have had something we could exchange .
No. It was not exchange of love whatsoever. But I have moved past it , understood the lesson . I don’t blame anyone. Not even myself because at that time , I did my best , truly my best .
I thought that’s what love is … Well maybe it was love to some extent but not the love I know now . Not the love I feel for myself.
It was always conditional, never given freely , always in expectation of something from both side of course.
We settle for less , because we don’t want to end up alone . Then we end up in a relationships where we feel lonely , not understood , thinking our partner must take the role of our parents , mind reader, our pleaser etc the list is long .
For me this isn’t love . I want you to thrive and be in love with yourself and your life . I don’t want to control you , stop you , blame you . I dont want toxic behaviour to be explained as jealousy.
Love is pure . Love is magical. And if you give love with no expectations but purely because you can share what you have and you are happy for someone to experience it with you ,without hidden agenda . Nobody can hurt you , you can afford to share because you are full of love .
Be love . Love yourself. Spread the love everywhere you go . Remember… it’s either LOVE or FEAR. What will you choose ?
True love cannot be found where it does not exist, nor can it be denied where it does.Torquato Tasso
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I had a very interesting conversation with my sister recently.
And what I will write below will give you an insight of what that conversation had in mind, or rather what i had in mind …because i have started it .
At first breath i felt somehow hurt but then i though, we do things we not aware might hurt others , we speak words we can’t take back . We often do and say from what we know best .
Sometimes that best is pretty low but i don’t want to judge a person , especially someone i know so close and someone I know would be hurt ten folds if I would be the one saying them things.
If you don’t have something good to say to someone, don’t say it. Treat all with courtesy and kindness.
I speak with my sister a lot about self love , how to respect your own self and appreciate everything you went through.
She know very well , at least now she knows for sure ,some of my insecurities. Yet she decided to laugh it off ,not thinking as per usual . Which sometimes makes me feel like it the reason id rather be alone than with anyone around me .
Going deeper, i feel like this is the exact reason why i prefer time alone . Since child ,there was always someone who would comment on something and make it not a big of a deal . Well it wasn’t anything big for me either, back then , or was i wrong? I was indeed very wrong … i would stop doing what i liked to do , not be around certain people because I knew they would pick on me , avoid certain situations .
I try my hardest to understand how it could take me so long to learn such simple lesson . All because of that one situation. Or rather because of me not letting it slip and not allowing this form of disrespect towards me . Even as a joke . Because you should not let anyone joke about things you insecure about, and im not learning to love myself just the way I’m, for someone else to come and destroy my self esteem in seconds .
Since that day i have came across so many articles and sentences in a book where it just bring it all back .
But I must say , im proud of how differently i handle things now .
Before i would try to ignore it and change the subject, just to stop the laughter . Now I speak up and say how i feel and why i think its not right.
I feel courageous. Yet there is still so many things to work on . When it comes to family, it is really fucked up.
I never thought i will have to cut ties . But if nobody cares and i have to make the effort? Is it worth it ? Is it worth the try if i see strangers being treated with more compassion than own family member?
I hope ill get some sleep tonight, it has been pretty challenging lately.
Love H .
I don’t chase . I attract ❤
Today I have really felt soo feminine . Totally at peace with myself, with my body . Loving the ones who loves me and appreciating the changes I see around me .
I have a friend of mine from few years ago ,who came back recently and we are back in contact, like everyday. I have thought that people don’t really change much, but the way he has changed , it’s unbelievable, it’s beautiful change and he is an amazing person , he has always been great but now what we have is a real connection.
Life might not always be easy on us . But it sure teaches us and show us that no matter what THIS TOO SHALL PASS 🤍
Happy Tuesday 😊
Today was truly an amazing day 💛 I have done my final Christmas shopping 🛍
Went for a lovely little date which was absolutely fabulous, sometimes simple things ,are those things we need , just a walk ,coffee and lovely company.
I have been also preparing the food for Christmas and actually I just finished , it’s 11.30pm but despite being tired as heck , I’m also very happy .
I see how important it is to appreciate the little things in life , things which doesn’t seem to make any difference, yet they make a huge one .
Love hard and never give up ❤ don’t be scared to be yourself, I’m usually called weird but there is someone out there ,who will appreciate that weirdness 🤍
I’m the person, who loves her own company, I love to have time to think ,read ,listen to lectures and just to be all by myself. It brings me peace and calmness. I feel like im charging myself, every single time I’m by myself only .
But of course there are days ,when I want a friend by my side , its usually my sister ,we are very close and understand each other without words …who would think that my sister will be my best friend .. looking back at all the mean things we did to each other ,when we were just a kids , it’s amazing how everything is changing once we mature and grow up .
We start to see our siblings in a different way , more loving way , it doesn’t mean we didn’t love them before, but now we just not ashamed of that feeling.
I have 6 siblings , me as middle child , my mom had full hands with all of us for sure . But somehow, she managed to raise all of us , to become good human beings, I’m grateful for that, even though our life was not easy at times ,I’m still happy .
Today all I want ,is the happiness of the people surrounding me 💫
I hope you have had an amazing weekend x stay safe and healthy 💗