Another day , another short video 📹
I wish you all wonderful evening 💞
Good morning everyone 💫
Why it’s hard to let go of someone , is it because we love that person so much or maybe we fear the idea of being abandoned by them ?
After some long time , some of us will get to the point where you will feel like you were neglecting yourself, while chasing the love of someone else. Their love isn’t more important, their love isn’t better than what you can give yourself.
In fact you not allowing yourself to let go , makes it triple as strong and necessary as it actually is .
We do need love and we are love. We are not in position and we never should beg anyone for love . Who are we ,how much we don’t feel worth of being loved , to actually beg someone ,and be with someone who doesn’t seem to bother about us at all.
One sided love is pain, then we hear people say that love is pain , while love isn’t pain , our choices are painful, because if we would truly work on and love ourselves, we won’t allow them situations to happen and we would choose someone who is choosing us .
I did what I said . ! I wanted to rest and I did , nevermind that I felt terrible …
I need to be more clear about what they heck i want . Just now ! Like now ! And it’s 9pm I got rid of the headache which was here since Friday 😫
But there is one thing I’m proud of … I managed not to take any painkillers, it would be just a waste as for me the kind of headache I had , never goes away with painkillers, it has to pass on its own or with a little bit of yoga.
So thank God I’m functioning again as I need to tailor my son’s school trousers as probably some of you are aware , school is back on tomorrow 🙌
And so work life is back , but that’s something I’m not resenting anymore, because I truly love what I do !
Have a lovely night and so much love ❤️
Theoretically , we all know what it means, however in reality it is very hard thing to accomplish for most of us , we are always thrown into thinking of the past or future , leaving little to no room for the present moment.
For many of us , there is always something better to focus on and think about than the moment we are currently experiencing . Yet , once we start diving into the present moment , and we let ourselves enjoy it, it becomes clear how much we reject ourselves and our needs, how we don’t appreciate the things we should be grateful for .
Finally when we have time to be present , we start to see everything differently . We start to see ourselves differently , we notice how we feel , how we react to everything around us, we notice how we neglected our need to feel and see even the smallest , the least noticeable things, now all of the sudden the touch which didn’t mean anything , has a different feel , words spoken are heard like a sweet melody, even simple cooking , becomes a relaxing practice and not a chore .
So I think the first and most important part to be happy in life is to become present as often as possible.
To do so , we simply must practice being Present , and with time and practice , we will become better at enjoying the present moment .
Well this one , clear as a day , will be probably the hard pill to swallow for anyone , because even when we fight against others to defend our opinion ,while we know that we are in the wrong , after the situation come to an end , we are left alone and we go back to the arguments or conversations we had , and we start to analyse everything we said and done , and then we relive the situation again , only this time we are hard on ourselves , not on others.
The process of judging starts and we are able to put ourselves under the biggest fire and speak very badly of our own self . That’s not something anyone should do , we should rather practice the opposite, which in that case would be , understanding ourselves ,seeing human being, in our own reflection , and try to make peace with whatever has happened , and what most important, move past it forgive and forget if that’s necessary for you to feel at peace .
We are all making silly decisions , and mistakes which we might regret at a later time but we all should understand that , that’s how life rules , we must learn and live and remember that it really isn’t that serious , we just make it be so we can feel like a victim . I know many would not agree but that’s not my concern as I have been overcoming this myself , and even though I understand a lot , I still need to look at myself from the 3rd person perspective and think how does it make me feel.
Anytime I feel it burden me or give me any sort of anxiety or ill feeling , I know I should look deeper and look for the answers within and not judge myself , because I definitely don’t see everything , especially when I’m furious ,angry or fearful , and the last one has been holding me back a lot for all those years , just now I know I was programmed to feel fear at any time , not exploring possibilities, not going for what wanted , settling for the less . That’s nobody’s best interest in life .
We are so scared of the death , yet we are walking through life as we already are on the other side . What’s the purpose of life , if we are scared to live and take any kind of risk .
Of course there is much more to it but that in the next post xoxo
Dating can be fun
Well if you have very low expectations or no expectations whatsoever is even funnier .
People think you a clown and take advantage of you
Everything changes however, when you start to respect yourself and don’t chase everyone who comes your way lol
Some people will even go as far as manipulating you into having Netflix and chill and of course making nothing of it . However the plan is well known and simple.
Get that meat , use it and abuse it and then of course play hard to get and ghost poor soul, who now think you have a connection. No you dont ! You just chosen to have sex with random dude in hope of romantic relationship, but that’s something you read in books, in real life nobody is that romantic. We all fucked up to some extent and don’t know how to deal with our own feelings so we play it tough and hurt everyone including ourselves.
Then we lie a bit and play games… ha ha ha
Yeah I might be a little bit bitter .
No i wasn’t hurt by anyone recently, it’s just an experience from the past.
I do shadow work so pardon me . Of course you might not agree with me .
Not that I care . I truly don’t give a fuck.
At the end of the day . We self centred and only focused on our own needs .
Yes yes that’s how we are most of the time. You can’t make me think otherwise. I’m one of you .
Hello my loves ❤
I hope you are having a wonderful weekend and staying positive and joyful .
It’s only two weeks now and I’ll be finishing my weekend work. I’m pretty excited to see what’s coming next , I have some plans and ideas and for sure I’ll make it happen, just as I did with this work. 💪
It’s crazy and amazing at the same time , how many challenges we can take on at times , and still feel like we are doing NOTHING?! At times we simply don’t see , how far we have come and how many things we have done .
Until we start to put everything on paper or just simply tell ourselves what already has been done .
I see now that even though I have decided not to make any resolutions for 2022 , I have achieved already more than I would with making them as per every single past year! Which to me proves the point ,that it’s not the resolution itself but the need for change ,is what counts .
I honestly would never expect myself to be where I’m today and it’s still kind of far from where I want to be , but is also far away from where I used to be , something like in the middle . The journey usually is long and challenging but I see now that it was all worth it . The wait , patience, sleepless nights , heartbreaks , removing people from my life , it all lead me to where I’m now .
Now all I want for myself is a peaceful and free life . Where I work how I want to work. Love how I love and not to be blamed and ashamed for it . Trust in people, make friends with like minded people, forgive those who made me feel unwanted, not worthy and not loved and just live my life to the fullest. That’s my wish for 2022 . No regrets.
Love Honotata. ❤
#healing #journey #spiritual #quotes
I don’t chase . I attract ❤
Today I have really felt soo feminine . Totally at peace with myself, with my body . Loving the ones who loves me and appreciating the changes I see around me .
I have a friend of mine from few years ago ,who came back recently and we are back in contact, like everyday. I have thought that people don’t really change much, but the way he has changed , it’s unbelievable, it’s beautiful change and he is an amazing person , he has always been great but now what we have is a real connection.
Life might not always be easy on us . But it sure teaches us and show us that no matter what THIS TOO SHALL PASS 🤍
Happy Tuesday 😊