Boundaries

There are people, who will try to come back into your life .

Those very same people, who left without word .

People who never thought you are worth explanation , apologies or simple I am not interested anymore.

All of those however, are basic things . Yet basic and strong enough to keep us bondage to behaviours which we should cut at the very first time .

People will try you , cross your line . And I already feel sorry for whoever is living a life without setting the boundaries.

No boundaries = no self love . You will agree to anything and never see a problem in disrespect. You will not be able to notice when someone tries to manipulate or gaslight you .

You are very easy target and because of that , so many of us will become a victim of someone , even when at first we will think of it in a quite opposite way .

I know however that , as we start to heal and learn to set boundaries, we take greater care of ourselves, we don’t agree with the concept of being a victim anymore and we don’t let anyone or anything slip and do whatever they want to do.

Yes we create our reality, and what we think is real is nothing but a dream, yet we live in this dream and its really up to us , whether we choose to live in heaven or hell .

Good night πŸŒ™ ✨️

Only because you thirsty , doesn’t mean you should drink the poison .

Thursday Though

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I have finished writing my book and as soon as that has happened, I realised that this book is just short cut of the story . I tried to hide most of the things and basically make it seem like it was all good and there is actually nothing wrong with what has happened etc .

There was so many eye opening things, and the fact that I was trying to hide it , is even worse . I don’t plan to publish this version as it’s definitely not the story I’d like people to see. I want it to be raw and real , and exactly as it was , the the stuff that has happened and the issues, childhood trauma etc .

The book will be posted under pen name, i dont want to make anyone’s life hard whatsoever. I just want to put it out there without filter.

For others to know , they not alone . That society is what it is . For others to realise that everyone can heal as long as there is a will to do it. That life is not happening against us . It teaches us everyday, and it is up from us, whether we will learn the lesson on the first time or maybe we will have to go through the same stuff 20 times during our life .

Hope you all have a wonderful day 😊

I Don’t Relate To You

I find it hard to relate with others, not because I don’t want to … but because I see what they rather not see. I don’t judge them yet I can’t agree and lie to them anymore .

Everything I used to believe in … that is non existent anymore.

Life has changed so drastically. I feel like I am the same person yet different in the way of viewing life and experiences.

This is so confusing at times .

Honorata

How important it is to have a routine in our daily life?

Well I will be speaking mainly about the spiritual routine, as from experience I can tell that before it was nowhere to be found , and the road to understanding and change, seemed like impossibility .

Now however, I have a strong routine, which is followed by me every single day, and I already can see ,despite it being only 30 days , how life changing and eye opening it is.

When you learn , and do things for your own good day by day, you see how important it actually is for your own sake.

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I see many people calling themselves lazy or unmotivated etc but is it really that? I think, it’s not really the case .

The main problem with setting a routine for ourselves, whether it is daily life or spiritual or basically anything, is the fact that we have strong opposite beliefs regarding our ability and worthiness and deserving all what it can bring .

So I think what’s the most important at the beginning, is to start small , don’t put a lot on yourself , don’t judge yourself and do the best you can , and as many of you probably have read Four Agreements , you know that our best will vary at all times .

So take it slow and start today . Even if its something you might take as not such a life changing decision. That’s how you create the life , you want to live .

Peace and love x Honorata

And don’t tell me I haven’t warned you

Today I have realised that the more I learn ,the less I know.

Also the more of a understanding I have within myself, the less I need to be around other people. And my own company is absolutely the best .

I see why now , I have put myself on hold and didn’t want to go through that all healing, deep inside I must have knows I’m just not ready , i wasn’t ready two years ago even in the slightest… which is crazy to think , before I thought i know life and now … i know nothing but that i want to be happy, at peace and content .Things I see and understand now , I would reject without a thought in the past . Now it is what it is , because its truly just our perception and opinions.

Love Honorata x ❀️

Not that I care but …

Dating can be fun

Well if you have very low expectations or no expectations whatsoever is even funnier .

People think you a clown and take advantage of you

Everything changes however, when you start to respect yourself and don’t chase everyone who comes your way lol

Some people will even go as far as manipulating you into having Netflix and chill and of course making nothing of it . However the plan is well known and simple.

Get that meat , use it and abuse it and then of course play hard to get and ghost poor soul, who now think you have a connection. No you dont ! You just chosen to have sex with random dude in hope of romantic relationship, but that’s something you read in books, in real life nobody is that romantic. We all fucked up to some extent and don’t know how to deal with our own feelings so we play it tough and hurt everyone including ourselves.

Then we lie a bit and play games… ha ha ha

Yeah I might be a little bit bitter .

No i wasn’t hurt by anyone recently, it’s just an experience from the past.

I do shadow work so pardon me . Of course you might not agree with me .

Not that I care . I truly don’t give a fuck.

At the end of the day . We self centred and only focused on our own needs .

Yes yes that’s how we are most of the time. You can’t make me think otherwise. I’m one of you .

Honorata

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Lately I started to think , if going through spiritual journey is really a blessing or a curse in today’s world .

Don’t get me wrong . I feel that I had it much easier while I didn’t care , while I did not understand, when I could pity myself, be a victim etc etc.

However now , them things don’t come easy if they show up at all . Yes I get mad , I have some stupid arguments , mainly with myself or others in my head … but it doesn’t stay long like it used to be .

You might think , what ? Is that bad ? Well , maybe it’s not bad , but surely it makes you not so relatable … and it hurts ,especially when you can hardly relate with the people you had some sort of connection in the past , family etc .

Before if someone did me wrong , I’d be moody ass B …. speak a lot of crap ,even if it meant to hurt someone deeply. Now I feel like them feelings , don’t arise at all . Most of the time Im like , okay I see , well I hope you well. And I don’t even hold grudges.

I feel sorry for the person who “hurt me ” well is it because i finally understand that nobody can really hurt me ? Only the way I perceived things were hurting me ? I really hope it’s that .

Such a long way to go , so many things to understand, the more you try to understand, the less you feel like a human . The ego is not as loud which is beautiful but also scary .

At times the way I feel makes me wonder if I’m not too naive, yet I also see that my intuition is stronger than ever . I can sense someone’s intentions without any problems now , i make clear boundaries and speak what’s on my mind , that is something I struggled with in the past .

I know my worth , what I bring to the table and I’m definitely not afraid of eating alone . I don’t feel like I need to chase anything anymore. Material possession never impressed me even in the past , but now the only thing which makes me passionate and excited is the other open human being , open and healing , someone i can exchange experiences. And nothing else matter .

Superficial relationships .That’s something I don’t want to be close to . Not my cup of tea.

If you ever wondered,Β  if it’s worth like i do . Well i don’t have one answer because it’s hard at times , but it teaches you different values and hope to heal your soul.

Love H

Happy weekend πŸ€πŸ’«

Hello my loves ❀

I hope you are having a wonderful weekend and staying positive and joyful .

It’s only two weeks now and I’ll be finishing my weekend work. I’m pretty excited to see what’s coming next , I have some plans and ideas and for sure I’ll make it happen, just as I did with this work. πŸ’ͺ

It’s crazy and amazing at the same time , how many challenges we can take on at times , and still feel like we are doing NOTHING?! At times we simply don’t see , how far we have come and how many things we have done .

Until we start to put everything on paper or just simply tell ourselves what already has been done .

I see now that even though I have decided not to make any resolutions for 2022 , I have achieved already more than I would with making them as per every single past year! Which to me proves the point ,that it’s not the resolution itself but the need for change ,is what counts .

I honestly would never expect myself to be where I’m today and it’s still kind of far from where I want to be , but is also far away from where I used to be , something like in the middle . The journey usually is long and challenging but I see now that it was all worth it . The wait , patience, sleepless nights , heartbreaks , removing people from my life , it all lead me to where I’m now .

Now all I want for myself is a peaceful and free life . Where I work how I want to work. Love how I love and not to be blamed and ashamed for it . Trust in people, make friends with like minded people, forgive those who made me feel unwanted, not worthy and not loved and just live my life to the fullest. That’s my wish for 2022 . No regrets.

Love Honotata. ❀

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Art of Mystics

I thought I’ll not post anything today , I have been focusing on Philosophy and I have started to write about each one and since there is soo many i decided to make one post for each. They sure deserve to be shown in their full light for everyone to appreciate .

However I thought I’ll post a little bit from the book Im currently reading, I have read it before and something told me to read it all over again today ,so here I am !

The book is The Art Of Mysticism by Gabriyell Sarom. Book which can explain many spiritual aspects of life , how we see things and how they are in real (what’s real thought,my inside philosopher “Ethics ” is coming to life ) .

What amazed me is that It speaks about the people and religion, and that faith in the religion is quite often unshakeable, well probably more then often … even if you are someone who doesn’t practice the religion you have been raised in, still you will have the unshakeable faith in everything you have been told ,taught about it . ( you can prove me wrong , but so far in my circle I see what I see )

I see people not having much trust in priests and churches itself but never denying the truths that they have been taught by them , people having faith in the source ,God outside of them , but not having trust in themselves and living their life , like victims of the God , who knows it all and punish them ,when we make something “bad” but we are the ones who actually make it all either bad or good . For God I believe everything is ,just as it supposed to be . How we see things ,make them be they way we portray them.

But ok ok I probably went a bit too far . The point in this book is that it is good to stay a little bit sceptical and never fully believe the thing , we have not experienced in our life .

“God became a complete act of faith and worship . But God is not truly a person living in the sky. God is indescribable, and it is up to the student to get to know him through first hand experience, instead of reading or hearing about him. God doesn’t require any faith or worship ,but recognition and experience. “

Love , Light and Magic ✨ and a little bit of Mystical experiences πŸ§šβ€β™€οΈ