Saturday

Another day , another short video πŸ“Ή

I wish you all wonderful evening πŸ’ž

Blissful Day – daily outlook

Isn’t it wonderful how nature bless us with such an amazing views ❀️

It’s Saturday and this post is scheduled because I promised myself not to use my phone today .

I will visit our local park with my son and I also plan on recording some videos, as I previously mentioned, I’ll post video a day from May 1st so I have to get to work ASAP !

There is so many things I want to talk about, it makes me extremely excited, kinda feel like a excited toddler in a toy shop .

Anyway I really hope you can take some time for yourself today . Read your favourite book , drink your favourite coffee , eat your healthy foods and take a lovely walk to refresh and relax the body, Mind and soul 😊

Give yourself the love you have , stay present and don’t forget to smile .

Enjoy your weekend xoxo

Honorata

Vacation dream

Greece , crete. Vacation. Holiday.  Sea. Sea shore 
Beautiful 
Fantastic 
Dream 
Reality 
Summer time 
Sunny day

I knew I was a little but delusional thinking that I can easily do all the wall painting and doors and basically everything.

Not that I haven’t done it . I indeed did it. But I cant feel my hand nor legs. Last few days I’m working non stop and if its not in house its my business and if not that I’ll have another one. Garden ! I want to plant something and I hope ill manage to do this this month , all up from the weather if I have to be honest.

Soon it will be summer and I’ll be travelling a lot so I just want to have everything perfect at home , so I just can do whatever I like during the summer break β˜€οΈ

In August I have a wedding, my Little brother have found the one . <let’s hope ill find the one too > one day haha

I’m shattered today and all I want is a hot bath and just read some book πŸ“– I really need vacation now…. πŸ‡¬πŸ‡· please wait a little bit, we will have a lot of amazing days together ❀️

Can’t wait to watch the sunset ,sunrise , the sea and the atmosphere of the Greek Island. I have been there so many times and I truly believe I could live there, it feels like home there.

I hope you all have a lovely evening 😊

Honorata

Don’t speak

I had a very interesting conversation with my sister recently.

And what I will write below will give you an insight of what that conversation had in mind, or rather what i had in mind …because i have started it .

At first breath i felt somehow hurt but then i though, we do things we not aware might hurt others , we speak words we can’t take back . We often do and say from what we know best .

Sometimes that best is pretty low but i don’t want to judge a person , especially someone i know so close and someone I know would be hurt ten folds if I would be the one saying them things.

If you don’t have something good to say to someone, don’t say it. Treat all with courtesy and kindness.

I speak with my sister a lot about self love , how to respect your own self and appreciate everything you went through.

She know very well , at least now she knows for sure ,some of my insecurities. Yet she decided to laugh it off ,not thinking as per usual . Which sometimes makes me feel like it the reason id rather be alone than with anyone around me .

Going deeper, i feel like this is the exact reason why i prefer time alone . Since child ,there was always someone who would comment on something and make it not a big of a deal . Well it wasn’t anything big for me either, back then , or was i wrong? I was indeed very wrong … i would stop doing what i liked to do , not be around certain people because I knew they would pick on me , avoid certain situations .

I try my hardest to understand how it could take me so long to learn such simple lesson . All because of that one situation. Or rather because of me not letting it slip and not allowing this form of disrespect towards me . Even as a joke . Because you should not let anyone joke about things you insecure about, and im not learning to love myself just the way I’m, for someone else to come and destroy my self esteem in seconds .

Since that day i have came across so many articles and sentences in a book where it just bring it all back .

But I must say , im proud of how differently i handle things now .

Before i would try to ignore it and change the subject, just to stop the laughter . Now I speak up and say how i feel and why i think its not right.

I feel courageous. Yet there is still so many things to work on . When it comes to family, it is really fucked up.

I never thought i will have to cut ties . But if nobody cares and i have to make the effort? Is it worth it ? Is it worth the try if i see strangers being treated with more compassion than own family member?

I hope ill get some sleep tonight, it has been pretty challenging lately.

Love H .

Exhausted

I have been thinking how badly I want to cry today… I was on the edge but somehow I could not cry …

Then I went to work and more and more pressure started to build up and boom ! Unexpected! I cried like a baby .

I didn’t really have a good reason to cry , it’s just them small things which build up over time .

In fact the last few weeks aren’t the easiest , somehow I can’t find the will to do anything, it just going downhill but today , shit really hit the fan and thankfully I was alone when it happened.

Writing this as I’m waiting to finish work and drive home.

I’m exhausted, my eyes are swollen from crying . Make up is a disaster, but in overall it was a good night if I have to be honest .

Sometimes it is good to have a proper cry ! It’s sort of therapeutic for me . The same with rain . Takes off my worries .

Wonderful Saturday to all of you x

Seneca Quotes

If you really want to escape the things that harass you, what you’re needing is not to be in a different place but to be a different person.

Seneca

We suffer more often in imagination than in reality

Seneca

Luck is what happens when preparation meets opportunity.

Seneca

True happiness is to enjoy the present, without anxious dependence upon the future, not to amuse ourselves with either hopes or fears but to rest satisfied with what we have, which is sufficient, for he that is so wants nothing. The greatest blessings of mankind are within us and within our reach. A wise man is content with his lot, whatever it may be, without wishing for what he has not

Seneca

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